It is amazing how your feelings towards someone can remain unaffected by time and other external factors, while other things crumble and decay in the very same process. Those feelings are usually reserved for those you developed a connection with, but you never had a chance to explore. They are the ones who got away away.
It's debatable whether or not these feelings only exist due to lack of knowing, what might have been, or if it's a rare instance of having connected to a real soul mate. Nevertheless, you occasionally find yourself mindfucking yourself and hoping to ejaculate an answer that will quench your thirst for the factual vision of a non-existing alternative future. Why had that one person gotten away? Was it my fault that things never came to pass? Rarely will you ever know the truth or see that person again.
Something that has puzzled me about all of this, is our lack of ability to act on our instinct and desire. We feel it strongly in our hearts, but we procrastinate the revelation of our feelings until it's too late. We end up feeling sad and with a heart that aches for closure and knowing.
Years and years from now, you will sit in the privacy of your home, happily married and with the kids playing in the garden, and think of the beautiful brunette or the tall blue-eyed bartender and damn your cowardice to hell.
We all have someone, who got away. It''s that person that will haunt you memories forever. Remember, your heart will always want to wonder why not...
Edward T. Shufflebottom
1 comment:
Wow, that hit home. I've met that person, and that person got away. Is it any excuse that he was the coward and not me? Sometimes you can do nothing but watch a dream pass.
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